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2010-05-12T02:09:00.000-07:00

There's too many things happened in the month of May; just too many. Ive quit my job at La Senza, i was diagnosed with Renal Colic, i met new sweetheart, i had very first conflict with my dearest kontots girlfriend. Damn. It's a mixed feeling. Happy, sad, in love, disappointed, upset, all at one go. I refused to get myself all pressed up. I wanna lead a happy life for now. Ill just follow with the flow.

Like what teenagers love to say, "Lek Jer Uh." :)

The Real Lover Is The Man Who Can Thrill You By Kissing Your Forehead. - Marilyn Monroe.

2010-05-01T22:55:00.000-07:00

CHOCOLATE PUMA @ ZOUK

Happy Birthday, Ayie. UOYEVOLI. :)

2010-04-29T10:35:00.000-07:00

Been away for months, right bloggers? I miss blogging, updating my life, blog hopping and of course, my hate taggers. NOT! Im much contented with my life now. Met alot of lovely people along this journey of life. Be it friends in Facebook and in Zouk. They're awesome. Oh, obviously, my hommies still rocking my world, like duh! Working life has always been the same. Nothing new. Except for the upcoming responsibilities that i need to handle. As for family wise, glad that the bonding between my brothers are getting stronger and closer.

I had my new haircut. And im very much in love with it.

2010-03-19T05:04:00.000-07:00

Too many things happened in such a short duration of time. Im no longer attached. I did this for our own good but somehow, i am still being misjudged. Let them be. I dont think i owe them any explanations. Its over, so let it go.

Im pretty much occupied with daily schedule, ill be back soon. I promise.

DO NOT GRIEVE OVER THE PAST.

2010-03-13T12:47:00.000-08:00

Dear 21122009,
" Andaikan ku bisa lebih adil pada cinta kau dan dia.
Aku bukan nabi yang bisa sempurna, ku tak luput dari dosa.
Biar aku hidup seperti ini, takdir cinta harus begini.
Ada kau dan dia bukan ku yang mau,
Oh Tuhan tuntunlah hatiku. "

Dear 03052006;
" So where do we go from here?
With all this fear in our eyes.
And where can love take us now?
We've been so far down,
We can still touch the sky.
If we crawl till we can walk again,
Then we'll run until we're strong enough to jump.
Then we'll fly until there is no end.
So lets crawl back to love.
Everybody see's it's you.
Well, I never wanna lose that view. "

LIFE IS UNPREDICTABLE.
so does feelings.
:'(

2010-03-12T23:49:00.000-08:00

FUCK YOU.
Stop poking your fucking nose into my life. It doesnt do any good deeds either. And stop calling my girlfriend sundal or whatsnot. Same same ade puki, pergi jage puki masing masing, ok? So tak perlu sia. Thanks hate taggers. I have something to bitch now, atleast. Im too busy to blog or even check my tagboard. In other words, i dont live a sad life like YOU. Be it who you are, get a life. No worries, message deleted, IP address banned and now, tagboard is locked. Have fun trying. Hidup aku, pandai pandai aku laaaa :)

2010-03-07T08:14:00.000-08:00

6TH MARCH 2010.

I attended Cosmic Gate event @ Zouk with Zahirah and Izzah. Went to Zion and had our drinks. Entered the gate of cosmic(haha!) around 12 plus. It was jammed pack yet awesome. We joined abang and his friends for awhile and then we had Fyda and friends joining us at 2 in the morning. Happening gile.

Apart from that, I wanna wish my makchic pendek a Happy 22th Birthday. Sorry saye tidak dapat hadirkan diri di majlis hari jadi awak. Bukan cosmic gate penting Zyra, cume aku habis keje lambat. Takot datang last last kopek. Still, aku rindu kau babe.

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5TH MARCH 2010.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY, GIRLFRIENDS.
LOVE LOVE KORANG DUA.

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4TH MARCH 2010.

Initial plan was to spend quality time with adik but ended up, we had Muhsan, Habil, Sasha and Izzah tagging along. The more the merrier laaaa~ Trained down to Orchard since adik wanted a Crumpler bag. Die memang suke sgt ketok kakak die tau. And i did bought him one which cost a hole in my pocket, $119?! Nevermind. Sekali sekala. Janji takmo naughty naughty. Hehe. We spent the whole day at ION, window shopping, crapping and stuff. Close to 10, we made our way to Grandlink for some singing session. We had Razmin and Ait joinning us. It was fun but towards the end, lemau liaoooo~ Overall, i had a great day with my loved ones. :)

2010-03-01T22:05:00.000-08:00

(Better picture quality. Credits to my new Samung Omnia Pro.♥)

"Dahulu seia sekata,
Namun kini semua telah berlalu

Sayang kuingatkan dirimu,
Bahawa ku tak bisa hidup tanpamu."

-lines of Tanpamu lyrics from Siti Nurhaliza & Kris Dayanti.

2010-02-28T08:17:00.000-08:00

SELAMAT PENGANTIN BARU; WANIE & SAB.
SEMOGA KEKAL DAN TABAH MENEMPUHI SEGALA DUGAAN BERSAMA.
Yaya akan selalu doakan yang terbaik untuk korang.

2010-02-18T03:00:00.001-08:00

NOW, LET'S SHARE, GIRLS. (:

He’s not perfect. You aren’t either, and the two of you will never be perfect. But if he can make you laugh at least once, causes you to think twice, and if he admits to being human and making mistakes, hold on to him and give him the most you can.

He isn’t going to quote poetry, he’s not thinking about you every moment, but he will give you a part of him that he knows you could break. Don’t hurt him, don’t change him, and don’t expect more than he can give. Don’t analyze.

Smile when he makes you happy, yell when he makes you mad, and miss him when he’s not there. Love hard when there is love to be had. Because perfect guys don’t exist, but there’s always one guy that is perfect for you.

2010-02-16T09:07:00.000-08:00

Well, for today's post i decided not to update about what happened for the past the few days. Despite knowing that i have quite a number of pictures to upload, i chose to save it for the next post. Basically, im gonna pour everything out here and i hope no one will get offended.

8 months ago, i ended my 3 years relationship with the ex. Im determined that i have moved on with my new life now, without the ex and am thankful to be attached with my current boyfriend. Sadly, people surrounding me cannot put my mind at ease and keep on talking, reminiscing about my past love with the ex. I must admit, we used to be known as lovebirds among our friends but sometimes, you just have to let things go for your own good. I cant blamed them. Maybe, we grew up together; the ex, my friends and myself. We shared the same circle of friends and i cant get rid of it, that's the matter of fact. He was the caused of everything and he chose to end it in such a heavyhearted way. It was never easy to move on with life, really. Moreover, he was my first love. Life was like a hell bitch back then but i pulled it through with my ownself. I was kept in the dark with bittersweet memories i had with him, i suffered. I deceived everyone by putting a brave front. I had countless of contacts in my list. Turned myself from a decent girl to an alcoholic bitch. I hit the club, weekly. Just to get over this severe heartaches.

Today, i escaped this misery. I opened a brand new life episode with a clean record. I let bygones be bygones. Eventhough he has done such a tremendous damaged to me, i didnt hold any grudge on him. I just hope that my friends and people surrounding me, will understand the pain that ive went through and be happy with whom im with now. Ill appreciate if they put a fullstop to it and respect my boyfriend by not bringing up the past love story. I have faith in Razmin. I used to share the same thoughts with the rest. I thought that my love with the ex will last till marriage but that was just a thought. Unfortunately, we didnt and went separate ways for almost 9 months. I believed god has a better plan for the both of us. I had enough, putting up with all his shit, i had enough, forgiving him endlessly, i had enough of every single thing. I need love, i need to feel being appreciated. Regardless of that short duration, i believe Razmin gonna treat me better. Even if he's not, im still thankful to get the chance to be in love with him. In love, you gotta have a clean heart and be sincere. Im still hoping the best for the ex and always want him to be a good man not for me but for his future love. Despite me being ill-treated by him, he used to be there for me, he did sacrificed for me. That is that.

Dearest Razmin. Dont be doubtful. You have my heart now and ill love you at my best. I dont care what they say, im gonna be with you.

"Bila kau kata kau sayang,
Terus aku tersenyum.
Dan lantas ku menjawab aku juga sayang padamu.

Bila kau kata kau rindu,
Aku pun rindukanmu.
Dan lalu ku jelaskan kita sudah saling Oh jatuh cinta.

Aku pun berdoa pada Tuhan,
Semoga cinta kita berpanjangan selamanya.
Berkocak nafas di dada bila terpandang mu,
Janganlah engkau pergi dariku."
♥Razmin Razak.

2010-02-13T05:54:00.000-08:00

Tidak pernah aku menduga,
Kita akan bersama,
Menjalinkan hubungan cinta.

Walaupun kita jarang bersua,
Percayalah namamu sahaja yang bertahta. ♥

Valentine's Day tomorrow. Celebrating, dating? I doubt so. Since my boy will be working at night. So yaaaaa. Now, i started to disagree with him, working night shifts. Why? I cant endure this lonely nights, missing him, waiting for his call and messages any longer. I can see that huge gap in between us. There's old saying, "Absence makes the heart grow fonder." which doesn't really apply to me. When im far from him, not getting to cuddle up with him whenever i insist to, i tend to make a big fuss out of it, indirectly; finding fault with him. I know he's on a mission but putting yourself in my shoes, it's totally not an easy task. I told myself umpteen times, not to be selfish but i cant. Sometimes, i just need his warmth. Im missing him right now. I realized, im always the fire starter to potential conflicts but Razmin always knows how to handle it and make it right for us. Am i not being a good girlfriend?

Dear bbybam, im sorry for throwing my tantrums at you. Im sorry for not prioritizing you as my boyf. Im sorry for not being good. Despite not meeting each other frequently, my love for you did not changed by even a single bit. Thanks for being such a dear to me. I love you and i miss you. With god's will, we'll bring this months to a year. (:

2010-02-11T08:43:00.000-08:00

Yesternight was fun, eventhough boyf and i didnt stay till the gathering is over. It was Ait's 21st birthday celebration. It was held at Simpang Bedok. Susi, Wanie, Sab, Zahirah, Andika, Aji, Boyf, Adly, Hasri and myself were all present. Had our dinner and off to Cash Studio at 10. Close to 1230, Boyf and i made a move since he has to be up at as early as 6 in the morning for his TP. Talking about your TP, love, im glad that you make it through. *A pat on your head* (: After sending my boy home, i continue my night by meeting Naseeha and Mamat. Mamat drove us to Changi. Did some catching ups with our life. Met Oreo and Baby. I had a hell fun. Home at 5 in the morning and have to be up at 8. Full shift liaoooo!

2010-02-08T07:37:00.000-08:00

San's 20th belated celebration was awesome. Sex la! HAHA.

2010-02-01T23:30:00.000-08:00

It's my last off day today. Decided to go towning and find for dearest a belated monthsary cum advance valentine's gift. So, ill be tagging along after Fydah is done with her hair thingy.

Yesterday, went to have dinner with Muhsan, Izzah and Zahirah at Al-Falah. Had my Mee Goreng Seafood Pattaya. Burp! Then chilled somewhere nearby with Ait and Susi. Webcaming and laughing. I didnt go home eventhough my hommies did. I stayed till 5 in the morning with Susi, Ait and Hasri. Thanks for accompanying me, especially, Susi. Waited for boyf to finish work and bck to Al-Falah since he wanted to have breakfast before he off to school. I miss my bbybam already. Boohoo. B, i sayang you. (:

"Oh my pretty pretty boy I love you, Like I never ever loved no one before you. Pretty pretty boy of mine, just tell me you love me too. Oh my pretty pretty boy, I need you. Oh my pretty pretty boy I do. Let me inside, make me stay right beside you." ♥ Razmin Razak.

Apart from all those mentioned above, let me have my say to dearest annonngirl. Time lambat. Aku dah keje La Senza dah nak masuk 8 bulan baru kau nak banyak nyek pat tagboard aku berbual pasal bende make up? WHAT THE FUCK?! Low life creature, doing nothing but hate tagging. What a sad life~ (:

2010-01-31T08:23:00.000-08:00

Initial plan was to attend Dj Gareth event at Zouk but since all of my kaki gereks not attending, i gave it a pass. After work, met Susi and Muhsan, trained to Pasir Ris. We had our very own 'Gareth' event by the beach, bbq-ing, singing, laughing, exchanging silly riddles, fishing and drinking. It was a blast night. Especially before meeting the rest; Muhsan, Susi & myself, causing a form of noise pollution to Pasir Ris interchange. Im supposed to meet boyf under his block once he's done with work but i told him to meet me at Pasir Ris park instead. He was abit pissed off with me, at first. But after i pujok him, he's back to that super irritating cute boyf of mine. That berangan boy, never fails to put a smile onto my face.(: Shayangshayang~ A very big thank you to Susi, Sab, Muhsan, Hasri, Ait, Ali, Zahirah, Arina & boyfriend, boyf and Aji(if im not mistaken) for that awesome night. Eventhough, there's no djs spinning and us having those 5 mins session. *inside joke*

Its been a while since i last club. Looking forward to 5th February, Zirca-ing with Muhsan and Zairi. Yay! Ouhkay. I need a favour from you readers, can you hear my playlist? Tell me if you do. Ok, night sugarpulps.

2010-01-29T11:19:00.000-08:00

Im bored and was scrolling folders of picture in my lappy, for an hour ago. Somehow, i miss days at Nanyang Poly with my Donuts and kaki gereks. I miss putting on my nursing uniform with pride and confidence. I miss having attachments at Changi General Hospital. I miss performing skills; NG Tube feeding, Off plugs, serving medications, doing hypocounts, dressing and more. I miss it like a hell lot. However, i didnt regret. Rather than i waste another year, skipping lectures & practicals and get debarred, i might as well throw myself out from that course or probably, school since ive lost interest. All along ive been wanting to become a Malay teacher. Ive planned to get myself enrolled in N.I.E and pursue my dreams. Unfortunately, im too occupied with shifts and forgotten everything about it, despite those frequent reminders from dearest boyf of mine. -.- Will see how it goes. One day, i will, insya'allah. Im planning to get myself enrolled for class 3. Eventhough i was abit reluctant. If it's not because of Wak and adik, i practically cannot be bothered with it.

Juwita, Sarniyah, Izzati, Sha, Kailani, Fatin, Dina, Aini, Luqman, Taufiq & more to be listed down; I MISS THE WHOLE OF YOU. Goodluck for your last lap; PRCP. See you, Staff Nurses, *ehem!. (:

2010-01-25T10:19:00.000-08:00

So, its my off day. Decided to meet the rest at Simpang Bedok for supper. Before that, i went to fetch Zura's son, Baby Rifqy. Carried him, put him to sleep and all, for a moment aku feeling feeling jadi mak. Haha. Met Zahirah, Izzah, Ait and Hasri at Tampines, with Baby Rifqy accompanying me. Stayed for 20 minutes and cabbed down to Tanah Merah. After meeting the rest, we proceed to Simpang and joined Sab & his friend. Once fulled, we planned to give Cash Studio a visit. So ya, 3 jam terpekik terlolong. At 3, home sweet home.

Sweetheart, im missing you badly. :(

2010-01-24T08:34:00.000-08:00

" Can't put my finger on it, how you got a pull on me.
I never thought i would find, the love that makes me weak.

Cause i never felt like this before
I used to hate hearing love songs,
Now that's all i sing.

Feels like you know me, I want to know you too.
Let me come closer, show you what i can do.
I'll give my heart too and every part of me
The way im feeling, is taking over me.

Imma give you every bit of my love,
Every part every piece of my love.
Imma give you every bit of my love,
You could have it, how you want it.

I usually don't act like this,
My friends say im moving too quick.
I dont care because i know you're sincere."

Since boyfriend started working at CHIJMES, we have limited time to spend for us. I miss him like alot laaaaa~ Eventhough he did drop by at my workplace almost everyday just to meet me before he off to work, but still, i can never get enough of him. Every of my nights ill just stare at the empty space hoping that he'll call me before i tuck in my bed. Unfortunately, he's busy working and i have to understand that and not being selfish. Endure, Dayah. Boohoo. Sayang, i know you're working your ass off at this moment, i just want you to know that im missing you badly and sumpah, i mean it. Take care at work, love. I love you and i know you love me too. ((:

Apart from that missing-ness, ill be getting my pay in 24 hours time. Wohoooo! Will be getting a top from RAOUL. And cant wait for 30th to Zouk. Lame sey tak club. Fuh! Sadly, boyfriend cant tag along because he has to work on that night. Alaaaaa! Good news, my store will be hitting our target, insya'allah. I see $1000 extra rolling in, baby. Haha.

2010-01-21T22:22:00.000-08:00

Im on off today. Decided to stay at home and do some spree cleaning. Moreover, boyfriend will be working later at 8. Bilik dah macam kandang babi. I need to do laundry, sweep the floor, fold a mountain of clothes and throw my unwanted make ups away. For now, im resting my ass off before i start to get my hands on. Oh god! I need to fix my bed yang roboh siket hari.

On the other different note, Happy 20th birthday Muhsan. Im sorry for not being there on your birthday. Im sorry for making you excited over nothing. Im sorry for breaking all those promises made. Im sincerely sorry. I wished i can. Am feeling real bad staying at home on your birthday and make myself absent for your celebration. I swear, it was unintentionally. Im gonna make it up to you eventhough it's a belated one. I promise to cheer you up. I love you, bestbuddy. You've been there, through thick and thin. Obviously, i will never gonna forget someone like you. You're the most reliable friend i ever had. The one that will always cheer me up whenever i was fucking down, with all those silly jokes of yours. I wished i can have all the time on earth to spend with you and the rest. I wished i dont have to work and chill 24/7, watching dvds, tonning, playing left 4 dead, like how we used to back then. We are close, buddy, and i know, from that tone of your voice yesterday, you're disappointed in me. Dont lie. I know you too well. Once again, happy 20th. May god bless you with health and wealth. May this friendship of ours rock till the end. I love you, Muhsan. Just like another brother to me. And, from the bottom of my heart, IM SORRY. ):

2010-01-20T23:16:00.000-08:00

MIN & DAYAH
HAPPY FIRST TO US.

"Tiba-tiba engkau ada, kemudian engkau hadir
Laksana kerdil ku memeluk, lihat aku lebih dalam.

Di matamu ku melihat ada cinta yg tersirat
Sirami hati merebak.

Barangkali aku salah, ku terdiam bukan bisu
Tahu engkau besar malu, tutupi rasa gelisah.

Biar saja waktu nanti yang menikmati kisah ini
Bersamamu aku senang.

Belum juga kah kau menyadarinya
Akulah yg pantas untuk kau cintai
Di bawah langit biru aku bersumpah
Diriku tanpamu apa artinya cinta.

Arti cinta ini sudah menelan waktuku
Siang malam hanya untuk pikirkan engkau
Sejuta kali aku berani bersumpah
Diriku tanpamu apa artinya cinta."

It's our first month when the clock strike 12 in the midnight tonight. Im glad to have you, after all those chances that i'd nearly lost. You're different in your own ways, treating me & appreciating me. No worries sweetheart, now, there's only you, in my heart and in my mind. I hope you'll never gonna change because im happy with what i have now. I hope to see more months of us. I love you and i just love you so much. Sumpah~ ((:

2010-01-19T23:02:00.000-08:00

I cant wait for pay day. And im going this 30th event @ Zouk. Woot woots! (:

2010-01-16T10:00:00.000-08:00

I chose to be with my boyfriend and that's the bottom line. I dont need a dumbfucker to lead this shit neither do i need idiots to be his/her follower. I know Razmin better than you, readers. So just shut that trap of yours and respect our boundaries. Just leave us alone. I simply dont give a fuck, hence, i suggest you, to not waste your time and effort. I trust my man. I believed he has been truthful and sincere towards me all along, despite him having quite a no. of girl-friends. Well, nice try but its not working on me, asshole.

Skip that part. I spent the whole of my Friday with boyfriend. Accompanied him for his appointment at Kembangan then off to Marina Square. Wait wait! The moment i saw him, i was like, "Kau! Hot pe matair aku."~ But, i left it unsaid. HAHA. Okok. Sidetrack. Gave Susi a visit at her workplace, had our puffs and had late lunch at Marina's food court. Afterwhich, we went to window shop for hours. From Marina to Wisma(ouh, i did visit my Bestgirlfriend & my Duts, Wanie & Zura at their workplace too!) then to 313. It was tiring but spending my day with my boy was a helluva fun. I love you, Min. I just love you. (: Trained down to Tampines. Had dinner at Mr Prata and slacked with Zie, Susi, Ait and Sab. Cabbed home and reached home close to 2 in the morning. I had such a wonderful day.

Today, i went to Wak's place. Spent time with Wak and adek. Stayed till 10 then off to meet boyfriend at Mr Teh Tarik. Wak gave me a good sign. She didnt nag at me after knowing that i have a boyfriend. She used to, okay! due to that previous relationship. She'll make sure that im dating the right guy. But just now, she gave me tons of advice and told me not to be devastated if things didnt work out. Boyfriend is so lucky for having both of my abang and adek on his side. Well, he deserved that, actually, for being super nice to me. One day, i shall bring him to meet Wak. Just taking things slow for now. Okay, i have to tuck in the bed. Im on full shift tomorrow. Goodnight sugar.

*No pictures for today's entry. Cant find my damn USB cable.

2010-01-12T05:33:00.000-08:00

"Sayang bukan nya sehari dua,
Percintaan kita ini,
Janji pun sudah dipateri."

Dan kini aku tahu satu kekasihmu hanya aku.♥

Boy, i just dont know how to describe this strong feeling i have for you in words. Just so you know, im sincere in loving you and hoping that you'll love me the same way too. Despite not meeting each other frequently, my love for you still growing deeper. Pardon me for being unreasonable and feeling insecure, at times. I just cant help it. When i love, i am a hell afraid of losing. I love you, Razmin. Only god knows.

2010-01-10T07:39:00.000-08:00

I was fcuking intoxicated on Axwell's night till i didnt get to enter the club. WTH?! But i did, though. Bumped into quite a no. of old friends and such. Thanked god, i have such a lovely boyfriend. He tried to make me feel better and was with me throughout the night. Never neglected me at all. He even did insert his finger into my mouth to create a gag reflex so that i can throw up and feel better. Awwww~ I love you, Min. Not to forget, a sweet bunch of friends and brother, showing their concern towards me, that night. Fydah joinned us at 1 plus. And by then, i was ok and am able to be myself. Awesome night, im loving it.

2010-01-08T09:36:00.000-08:00

Pardon me for the lacking of updates. Im much occupied with Full shifts lately hence, my brain ain't functioning well by the time i reached home. On the other hand, my off days were splendid. Moreover, ill be having my off day tomorrow, on afternoon shift the following day, and two off days, subsequently. As planned, ill be attending tomorrow's event at Zouk with abang and boyfriend; Dj Spinning, Axwell. Neh, not really into the Dj. Its the crowd who's going make it enjoyable. Hopefully, it'll be as happening as LaidBack Luke. Despite knowing that im going without Zahirah's presence. Boohoo!

It's less than half a month and im almost bankrupt. Been having heavy shopping spree this month. Oh my god. How how how? I need to work on my savings since the March Bangkok trip with Muhsan, Izzah and Abang has been confirmed. Flight tickets & expenditures. I have to discipline myself in putting my salary aside for that short gateway. Excited.

On the other different note, im damn in love with my boyfriend laaaaa. How can i not? Okok. Sounds so mushy mushy, but who cares? He's so convincing and make me fall in love all over again with all those sweet lil' thing and i must admit, he's so adorable. He put up with my fcuking attitude and with that, my heart is now with him. Keep it free from any heartaches ok, bby? We'll rock this loveship, insya'allah.

Unfortunately, im gaining all those kilos back. WTF?! Nevermind, atleast im happy with life now. Ok, tataaaaa~

Ouh by the way, thanks Muhsan, Syasya and Aishah for waiting till i end work.

P/S: Kazz, may you rest in peace. Al-fatihah.

2010-01-05T09:22:00.000-08:00

ABANG FIR'S WEDDING; 3RD JANUARY 2010. Semoga berkekalan hingga ke anak cucu. Chey! Haha. I went to catch Alvin And The Chipmunks II with adik, my cousin; Dian and boyfriend at Tampines Mall. It was fantastic. I love Theodore. Cute nak mampos. Pipi mcm memintak gitu kene gigit. Kesian pipi min kene cubit pulak. Tetap boyfriend i cute mcm Theodore. (:

2010-01-04T09:08:00.000-08:00

OVERDUE PICTURES.

2010-01-03T05:41:00.000-08:00

"Took a chance, rolled the dice on me and you.
Opened up, let you in my world.
Like a dance started slow and then love took control.
Swept away, so proud to be your girl."

I LOVE MY BOYFRIEND. (:

2010-01-01T05:18:00.000-08:00

HELLO 2010 :D

2009-12-31T04:01:00.000-08:00

HAPPY 20TH, NASEEHA BTE ABD RAHMAN.
When the clock strikes at 12 midnight; 31st December.

Sweetheart, thanks for being such a great girlfriend of mine; 7 years and it is still rocking good. I love you and it'll never change throughout the years, insya'allah. You were there when im in need of someone. You were there catching me when im falling out of nowhere. I wont neglect you nor pushing you out from my life because a good girlfriend like you dont deserve that. Thanks for everything, every single thing that you've done for me. Those sacrifices made. You willing to do anything just for my sake and i really appreciate it. I love you, babe. Even words cant describe how much i do. I pray the best for you and also, Mamat. Hopefully, things will flow smoothly for the both of you. May you succeed in life. May god bless you with health and wealth. See you tomorrow, love. (:

2009-12-30T05:09:00.002-08:00

It's my late Mom's birthday today.
& I miss her, badly.

"Pertemuan Kita Di Suatu Hari
Menitiskan Ukhwah Yang Sejati
Bersyukurku Ke Hadrat Ilahi Di Atas Jalinan Yang Suci

Namun Kini Perpisahan Yang Terjadi
Dugaan Yang Menimpa Diri
Bersabarlah Di Atas Suratan
Ku Tetap Pergi Jua

Kan Ku Utuskan Salam Ingatanku
Dalam Doa Kudusku Sepanjang Waktu
Ya Allah Bantulah Hamba Mu

Mencari Hidayah Daripada Mu
Dalam Mendidikkan Kesabaranku
Ya Allah Tabahkan Hati Hamba Mu
Di Atas Perpisahan Ini."

Doa Perpisahan-Brothers.

AL-FATIHAH; Untuk Ibuku Yang Tercinta. Suryati Bte Karim.
Ya'allah tempatkanlah ibuku di dalam golongan golongan orang yang beriman dan kau sayangi.
Jauhkan dia dari seksa kubur dan azab api neraka.
Janganlah kau seksanya diatas perbuatan yang telah aku lalukan.
Kau ampunilah segala dosanya dan tempatkanlah dia didalam syurga.

Amin.

2009-12-29T08:27:00.000-08:00

DINNER @ LAU PA SAT WITH LS SUNTEC. :D

P/S: Ill never forget my cheetahs @ Wisma, though.

2009-12-27T08:03:00.000-08:00

My off day. Im supposed to bring dearest lil' brother out for Alvin & The Chipmunks II but, i gave it a pass since im so sleepy and refused to get out from bed. Few hours later, i made a plan with Muhsan and Fad. Off to Grandlink for karaoke session with abang and boyfriend's presence. What more can i ask for? Brother, boyfriend & my kaki gereks; complete bunch. Subsequently, we had our supper at Al-Salihin. We went separate ways after that. Dearest Min drove all of us home. Awwww~

2009-12-26T09:22:00.000-08:00

Last minute plan, to Zouk. Since most of them received those invites, i decided to tag along. Fydah was present. She entered Zouk, illegally. Shhh! Secret. Suke Fydah eh. Ajak pergi tempat R&B teros battery nyawa nyawa ikan. Hehe. Sayang dieeeee~ I was shagged and unfortunately, im on full shift the next following day. 3 hours left before getting ready to be on the sales floor. Goodluck uh Dayah~

**Im falling in love with you, over and over again.

2009-12-24T09:04:00.000-08:00

PAY DAY; atlast! :D
To Simpang Bedok for late dinner with Kak Lia, Nani, Sab and Wanie, instead of going to Zouk; Dirty South. Then to Cash Studio without Sab and Wanie's presence. I had fun still.

2009-12-23T08:38:00.000-08:00

Im on morning shift. Off from work at 6 in the evening. Trained down to Tampines and met the rest; Fad, San, Habil and Sasya at San's place. I miss Baby Khalid and Aishah. And that was my first time meeting the newborn baby, Khalisya. So cute, i cant resist those chubby cheeks. Asek nak cium je. Geram** Slacked and watched Ninja Warrior with San's mom and his sisters. Around 9 plus, we made our move to Tampines Mart. Bumped into so many long lost friends. I wish i can stay longer. Planned about going Bangkok during March holidays, hopefully jadiiiii~ Nearly midnight, the boyfriend fetched me and i accompanied him for his supper. I cabbed home at 2, close to 3 in the morning. Although it's a long day for me, i did have my fair share of quality time spent with my loved ones. (:

2009-12-21T10:44:00.000-08:00

**edited**

Initial plan for today was to drag my ass from Yishun all the way to Tampines to meet my chums but something cropped up in between. Which means, i cant meet Min as well. All thanks to me for taking my own sweet time and subsequently, tertido~ Im supposed to withdraw some cash from my account therefore, i have to give the neighbourhood bank a visit. Since i got back to my lalaland, i didnt managed to rush myself before the operating hours ended; CASHLESS. So, i ditched the idea with regrets and stucked in my room, changing the blog templates. Damnnnnn it! Tomorrow, ill be having store meeting early in the morning but looking on the brighter side, ill be off from work at 6. Im so gonna make it up to my chums, especially, Zahirah & San and not to forget, Min. Sorry b. Tak sengaje. ):

A few more days to my pay day. And am hoping ill be getting my pay tomorrow. Atleast, im well-prepared for the upcoming event @ Zouk. I need to be guaranteed that i wont be cashless on 24th, please! Nak pergi laaaaaa.

As for now, i need to do some cleaning and laundry. Off day, teros jadi maid. Padan muke kau Dayah, berserak kan bilik lagi laaaa. Dah kalah macam bilik orang bujang. -.-"

* * * * * * * * * *

Me To You.

"Oh girl how I believe in you
You're the light that has always seen me through
In you I could find
That I will be
Forever by your side
Now we see our love has grown
And these have been the sweetest times
That I have ever known
And I know that it will never end,
'Cause every time I look at you,
I fall in love again."

I Love You Dayah Azman.

* * * * * * * * * *

Psst! He actually post something when im asleep. B, i miss you.

2009-12-20T09:02:00.000-08:00

RAZMIN & DAYAH; 21●12●2009.

"Kasih dan sayang,
Cinta dan rindu,
Tersemat di jiwaku.
Usah biarkan ku kecewa membalut luka.
Agar kau mengerti yang selama ini,
Aku menyintaimu."

2009-12-20T08:42:00.000-08:00

; 19th December 2009.
Had supper at Lau Pa Sat with my Suntec colleagues; Kak Lia, Kak Tina and Nani. They said, "We believe you're one good girl but due to your surroundings, you tend to get influence easily." We talked about things that has got to do with religion and stuff. And they're shocked that ive got one solid understanding about Islam. Never judge a book by its cover, Kakak kakak. (:

; 20th December 2009.

For the first time in December, we managed to hit 7k today with not enough of manpower. With all the teamwork and effort, we succeeded. Dearest Muhsan and Syasya surprised me at work. They gave me a visit at my workplace. The moment i saw them, i dumped all the hangers in the bin and ran towards them. Sumpah rindu gile babi~ They waited for me to end work. And lovely Aishah, gave me a hairband with alot of blingbling. Thank you sayang. Had our puffs and went separate ways. I miss my babies. ):

17th December 2009

2009-12-19T09:29:00.000-08:00

It's Thursday and i sacrifised my DBLO-ing day for the sake of my brothers. We headed down to Tampines and fetched our lil' brother. Then off to Habourfront. We had our late lunch plus early dinner at Ramen Ten. It was my treat. Around 5 in the evening, we took a shuttle bus from Habourfront interchange to Sentosa Island. The three of us were so excited. It was my virgin visit to Underwater World, can you believe it? Gosh. After alot of 'please here and there', abang gave in and decided to treat us. We enjoyed ourselves. I was too engrossed with the marine life. Snap, snap and snap. Im amazed laaaa. After spending like almost 1 hour, admiring the uniqueness of each sea creature, feeding the stingray and etc, we made our move to Skyride. I hate that part, seriously. Otherwise, i enjoyed the luge ride, though. Same goes to my brothers.

At 8:30PM, we stepped out from that island and had a stroll at Vivocity. I managed to grab something from Zara. Sempat~ Cabbed down to Tampines, again. Sent adik home and went off to meet Razmin and friends. Abang tagged along too. We then proceed to Grandlink and had our Left 4 Dead 2 session. Gerek gile. Makkkkk~ Aku bahan sey bile part jadi infected. Pig tol! HAHA.

P/S: I love my brothers and i will never trade anything in this world for them. They're irreplaceable; my pillars of strength & the beat to my heart. & I ♥ RAZMIN TOO.

16th December 2009

2009-12-16T12:35:00.000-08:00

Abdul Razmin; he's nothing new in my life. Used to be under one of my contact list. But today, he stepped up a stage higher than the others because he got me all caught up on him. Although we did bullshit to each other once, but i hope this is worth to be given a second trial. Im so into him right now. Im giving myself time to be prepared and totally ditch singlehood because i believe we can go far and i aint wanna hurt him anymore. Insya'allah. He's different; the way he treats me and all. And one thing for sure, i love him. Lalalalalala~

"I don't wanna go another day,
So I'm telling you exactly what is on my mind.
Seems like everybody's breaking up
Throwing their love away,
But I know I got a good thing right here
That's why I say...

Nobody gonna love me better
I must stick with you forever.
Nobody gonna take me higher
I must stick with you.
You know how to appreciate me
I must stick with you, my baby.
Nobody ever made me feel this way
I must stick with you.

And now ain't nothing else I can need
And now I'm singing 'cause you're so, so into me.
I got you, We'll be making love endlessly.
Baby, I'm with you.
Baby, you're with me."

14th December 2009

2009-12-14T13:08:00.000-08:00

DONE, GOODNIGHT. (:
Btw, thanks boy, for fetching me from work.
I LOVE YOU, RAZMIN. ♥♥

12th December 2009

2009-12-13T09:30:00.000-08:00

ZOUK OUT 2009.

More to be uploaded.

13th December 2009

2009-12-13T08:28:00.000-08:00

"Baby are you down, down, down, down, down.
Even if the sky is falling down, down, down.

You oughta know, tonight is the night to let it go,
Put on a show, i wanna see how you lose control,

So leave it behind cause we, have a night to get away,
So come on and fly with me, as we make our great escape.

So baby dont worry, you are my only,
You wont be lonely, even if the sky is falling down,
You'll be my only, no need to worry,
Baby are you down, down, down, down, down.
Even if the sky is falling down.

Just let it be, come on and bring your body next to me,
Ill take you away, hey, turn this place into our private getaway.

Now can he be my soldier, please?
Fighting for me in the battlefield of love."

We did our mistakes. We did try to go separate ways.
But, it always turned out to be unsuccessful.
I believe everyone deserves a second chance.
& im giving it to you, TO US, like you gave to me before.

10th December 2009

2009-12-10T09:28:00.000-08:00

"Just like that and then you're gone.
Everything you had to say, sent the tears right down my face.
Now I'm trying to escape the misery.
Why dont you love me, the way i love you.
It feels so crazy, cause' I dont know what I did to you.
If you're gonna hurt me, then do it quickly.
Cause I'm tired of crying.
If you don't wanna stick around,
Then, baby forget about me.

Cause heaven knows I've tried.

9th December 2009

2009-12-08T10:02:00.000-08:00

Issues, yet again. Breathe in, breathe out. People have been advising me, "Dah lah Dayah, jangan layan die. Buat bodoh sudah." But i refused to. I want you readers, be it my haters or whatsoever, to evaluate how reliable the source of factuality in all her post. Obviously, i dont want this to prolong but sometimes, when things gone beyond the line, you just need to speak up. I have the right to stand up for my ownself and i dont see that as some form of a childish behaviour.

Nur Amalina, you can talk all you want, post as you wish, i dont give a damn. Simply because your words aint gonna bring me down. Well, a group of my readers, know those dirty tricks that you gonna play on me. Go on, roll your dice. If you feel like posting all those messages exchanged between me and Rezzuan, go ahead. No one's stopping you. I dont feel even a pinch of being threatened. Im cool, babe. You assumed that i felt being cheated. Maybe, you should be the one. Why? Simply because your Bb talked shit about you behind your back. Depan punye lah sweet nak mampos. I was with him before you. He'll do all those sweet talks, indirectly. Omong omong kosong gitu lorh. He reported this and that to me about you; never gonna patch things up with you, his mom dont like you calling her 'Mak', about you harassing him, ouhya, even molesting him when you got to know he's contacting me and stuffs. He even called you, "Pompan longgar, right?" That's the reason why you tried ways to make me tag along in the same category as you. Neh! You wished. I may act like one minah, like 'anony' stereotyped me as, but atleast and thanked god, i still owned a dignity and pride, even after, a silly mistake ive done. From that mistake, i learnt and that's the reason why i shouldnt trust a man. Too bad babe, both you and him dont deserved a single bit of respect from me. Im not hating you for being with him. I hate you because you're young but own a fucking fuck up attitude despite those deceiving "im-innocent" look. Yes, i felt cheated, at first. I trusted him, and gave in. Go against my brother and all. But as days passed, after frequent meet-ups, i realised, he's not worth it. I believed i can no longer be happy like before and i dont see myself being with him in future to come. Look, you ever had his child, he fucked a few girls after breaking up with me, including you, and so. Come on. Kalau kau pike aku nak gado dengan kau pasal ni jantan, tolong. Aku tak sekontol kau. Jantan bukan die sorang dalam dunia ni. Im so over him. I shall not waste my effort, convincing losers like all of you, especially hate taggers. Im clever enough to make him one of my "kalau-boring-material". I wasnt hoping anything. When i kept quiet the day i decided to just ignore this jerk, he texted me, saying, "Fatfat, betol u taknak lyn i." and so on. Sape yang carik sape? In the middle of the dusk, he called me, asking me if i want to meet him up. He came all the way to Yishun with San, accompanying him. Aku ke yang terhegeh-hegehkan die? I make used of him. I made him carry my helmet, accompany me to and fro. I was playing along with his same old game. Im not as heartless as you, Lynn.

The moment he told me, he got you pregnant,
I scolded him and say, "Dah bodoh pe kau ngandongkan anak dare orang."

And when he's story-telling to me about the incident, he boxed your eye,
i reacted with, "Asal kau pukol die? Sejak bile dah pandai pukol pompan? Bile aku nan kau, kau tak pernah jalan tangan pon?"
He replied, "Salahkan die uh. Die yang kurang ajar. Padan muke die. Banyak banyak pompan takde satu pon yang mencabar aku, die sorang je."

Tell me, should the person you love, respect most, talked behind your back; lanchiowei you? I come to realised that he's not the one for me. Satu jantan patut jage pompan yang die sayang bukan merosakkan. Dan bukan mengaibkan name pompan die jugak. Dan satu jantan patut bertanggungjawab atas perbuatan die dah buat bukan menghilangkan diri. Kalau die betol sayang kau, asal berape hari lepas break nan kau die call aku? Asal die gi menyundal dengan pompan lain? Asal? Nak cakap pasal balas dendam pat kau. Kalau sayang tak kan ade sifat dendam. Get that? I dont see why the hell should i get jealous over you being with him. I had both the best and worst side of him. I know him inside out. Yes, he'll changed. But only for a meantime. Maybe, you're laughing hard right now. Well, laugh all you want because at the end of the day we shall see who'll have the hardest one. Im not posting all this to make things go shaky between the both you. What for? Ive been keeping quiet. I even deleted my old blogspot just to prevent myself from blogging about you; venting anger and such. No point. Aku taknak jadi bahan orang kutok mengutok. Im sure you gonna read this. Not happy with it, you know my number. Holla me up. Since you want me to be a fully grown adult, you should know how to handle things in a appropriate manner. Bak kata pepatah melayu, Paku dulang, paku serpih, mengata orang dia yang melebih. (:

And to hate taggers, muke bapok la, perangai minah la, childish la. That's all? Lame and dull.Nak suruh aku grow up? Firstly, before you start to condemn others, give yourself a good look in the mirror. Aik! Type pakai name samaran ke? Laaaaaa~ Perangai budak budak tu. Cube bilang sikit umur korang berape? Duit jajan mak bapak masih kasi, nak banyak bunyi pulak. Muke aku macam bapok? Ouh. Terima kasih. They're good in make up skills, you know. They can be hotter than pure females. Lain lah kau. Pakai eyeliner setinggi langit, blusher semerah Chinese Opera, bedak pakai pon tak betol agaknye. Tsk tsk! Nak saye ajar tak? (: Saye sedia membantu. Aku minah? Sorry la whyeeeeeeee. LOL. Geram? Nak tag tapi tak boleh kan sayang? Macam mane eh? Kau naik tingkat 12, kau terjun pon baek. - WITH MINAH ACCENT. :D

Ok, im done. Promise my friends this will be the last post about that GIRL.
ONLY BITCHES TALK SHIT THAT'S WHY IM BUSTING THEIR SHIT!

8th December 2009

2009-12-07T10:34:00.000-08:00

HAPPY 20TH WANIE SAYANG.

___________________________________________________

"For the way you're something that I never choose
But at the same time something I don't wanna lose
And never wanna be without ever again.

You're the best thing I never knew I needed
So when you were here I had no idea
You're the best thing I never knew I needed
So now it's so clear I need you here always.

My accidental happily ever after
The way you smile and how you comfort me with your laughter.

Who'd knew that I'd be here, so unexpectedly
Undeniably happy
Said with you right here, right here next to me
Boy, you're the best thing I never knew I needed."

♥ MIMIN.
Day by day, im falling for you.

7th December 2009

2009-12-07T08:57:00.000-08:00

CLICK TO ENLARGE

"NOWADAYS, FB PUT INTO SUCH A GOOD USE EH, NUR AMALINA?"
Its obvious, dont try hard to deny.
Cakap macam tak pelat tapi sendiri buat. Ape ni?
Kau confused jugak ke? Ok, dimaafkan. (:

Aku rase ditipu? Not a single bit. Why? Because i took my steps before he does. Clever, Dayah. Well, once a liar, will always be one. I dont think by elaborating more worth my time. Goodnight.

OKLAH. KAU MENANG LAH KAY. INFORMER AKU TAK LAH SE "DIE-HARD" KAU PUNYE. AKU KASI KAU MENANG LAH SINCE KAU LETAK SO MUCH EFFORT IN IT. BUKAN NYE DAPAT APE APE PON. BUANG MASE AKU JE. YELAH, KAU KAN SEMANGAT SWINE KAN POST SEMUA AKU NYE WALL TOPIC SINCE BILE? NOVEMBER. WOAH! AMAZING SEY KAU. HAHA. ISSUE AKU DENGAN KAU DAH BORING. PASAL KAU BEING SO DEFENSIVE AND MISLEAD WHAT AKU INTEND TO DELIVER, BUKAK LAGI ISSUE YANG DAH BERZAMAN NI. MAKKKKKK AI~ MENDAK. *YAWN*

4th December 2009

2009-12-04T04:42:00.000-08:00

KECOH.
Abang gonna accompany me for my late dinner later.
See you soon, love.

2nd December 2009

2009-12-04T04:20:00.001-08:00

DONUTS REUNION.
SLEEPOVER AT JUWITA'S PLACE.

SENTOSA DATE WITH JUWITA.
I CINTA YOU GIRLFRIEND. (:

1st December 2009

2009-12-01T09:47:00.000-08:00

Kepade clan clan *ehem*, im fully grown adult and am not acting like one youngster, hatetagging 'your girl' using other names. Ive no time on earth to bitch around. I dont even bother to clear my name because i wouldnt want to get myself involved in your typicaldailybitchy conversation. Its not me, so why bother? Grow up. Ade tindik minah eh? Laaaaa. Kenape bengap sangat eh, baby? Suke sangat cari pasal. Nanti i bunyi, you panggil i minahrep pulak. Kesian, korang confused.
Takpe, you're forgiven.

"Otak takmo muddy ah kanak2 krayon."
Like what abang said. (:

28th November 2009

2009-11-28T23:05:00.000-08:00

LAIDBACK LUKE @ ZOUK.
It was an awesome night. With so many 'monyet pakai battery people', including me. The Dj is so hot, fcuking good-looking. I never had a blast night like yesterday. Too bad Wanie, our DBLO date is one star down. HAHA. A complete crowd, with abang's presence. WHAT MORE CAN I ASK FOR? Was abit tipsy but im still manageable. (: I want more. Got hooked up and im addicted to it.

27th November 2009

2009-11-27T08:40:00.000-08:00

DOUBLE O-ING (:
Wanie, Illa and myself had a fair share of enjoyment last night. Bumped into so many kaki gereks; Flex, Zyra, Ikbar, Jep, Nizam, Imp, Fahmi(Monk's friend) and etc. Cant recalled laaaaa. HAHA. I want more of this people. And to you boy, **stop kau mencuri hatiku hatiku** (: And Imp, thanks for sending me home.

Tomorrow, Zouk-ing with Zahirah. My virgin visit. HAHA. Hopefully, ill have more upcoming fun time at Zouk. Well, i need to get myself ready for L4D session with Imp, Nizam, Pacai and all. Till next time. Take care, people.

24th November 2009

2009-11-24T00:04:00.000-08:00

Im rotting at home during my off days. Shit! I wanna get myself out from bed but money is the main problem. Im cashless but luckily, pay day is only one day away. I cant wait for retail therapy. Moreover, i will be getting my incentive. Woohoo! Im sorry for ditching my meet-up with you, Zyra. Did my explanation and will make it up to you, babe. Life has been great lately. Being single is'nt that bad after all. Am trying to widen up my circle of friends. Met alot of wonderful people as well. "You got a new love baby, i got my homies." What more can i ask for? My homies will stay with me through thick and thin. And that's why, i love them whole-heartedly. I cant wait till 26. Meeting Flex, Zyra, Kikilala and many many more. Im going with my sweetheart, Wanie and her cousin, Illa. Tak sabar youuuuu! Friends have been telling me, over and over again, to cut down on my enjoyment, but i refused to. Why? Simply because, im working babies. And im only free after work. Where else can i go eh and have fun? Heh.

29 will be a Sentosa date with Baby Juwita. Im gonna bring her for luge, skyride, Song Of The Sea and many many more. Take that as a belated birthday treat from me to you, B! I will always love you and that's a promise.

Im gonna bring my family out for Newton makan session. I have so many thing in my mind and i hope i can managed fulfilling it.

Wanie sayang birthday is coming, am trying to figure out the best birthday bash ever for her. By the way, Wanie, im gonna miss you since ill be transferring to Suntec. Sedih gile sey, babe.

Ouhkay, before this post gets crappier, i shall put a fullstop to it. Else, it'll continue and gets wordy. Take care, readers.

23 November 2009

2009-11-22T11:27:00.000-08:00

I was bloghopping and i came across this pathetic tag from someone's board. Does having monroe makes you a BOHSIA or trend-follower? Seriously, bullshit! How lame can this people be sia? HAHA. I know, this is oh-so-random but still, i need to do some justification. Others, may be. But as for me, i am fully grown adult and have an ability to think, not carbon copy-ing. Silly youngster. -______-

OK BYE.

22 November 2009

2009-11-22T10:41:00.000-08:00

When you hit the wall, think of me, I’ll be on the top just watching you fall ; PLAYED YOUR GAME, CAUGHT YOUR TRICKS, GUESS WHAT BABY, IM TOO SMART NOW AND THAT'S THE REASON WHY I LEFT YOU THIS TIME ROUND.

I HAVE A CRUSH WITH MY BESTGIRLFRIEND'S COUSIN.
AND I LIKE IT ☺

20th November 2009

2009-11-19T22:57:00.000-08:00

I went slacking with my babies at Tampines Mart from 9 till the next morning at 7. Lame gile pe? But Mamat did drive us all the way to Changi, though. We chilled there, altering Ajun, San and Jannah's eyebrows. We did have our heart-to-heart talk and they pointed out those ridiculous changes in me which they disliked most. Although they did make me broke into tears, threw harsh words against me, i still love them the same and will always do. Cause i know, you guys are trying to save me from drifting away. ♥

" So let me on down cause' time has made me strong.
Im starting to move on.
Im gonna say this now;
YOUR CHANCE HAS COME AND GONE.
And you know, it's just too little too late. "

19th November 2009

2009-11-18T21:20:00.000-08:00

"Berapa lamakah lagi terpaksa aku menanti,
Sehingga pedihnya penyiksaan di hati.

Bukan hanya kepentingan, malahan keegoan telah ku korbankan.
Berlimpahan kasih sayang aku curahkan,
Buat mu seorang.

Kiranya semua itu tak bermadai bagimu,
Apa sebenarnya yang kau mahu ku tak tahu.

Kau hilang bila ku tiba,
Kau datang bila ku kecewa,
Terasa diri di persenda.

Dimana berakhirnya nanti permainan sendiwara mu ini,
Sesungguhnya aku tak mengerti.

Jika benar cinta itu buta, butakah mata ku?
Berkali terluka masih jua ku merindu.
Apa yang ku inginkan cuma kejujuran dalam perhubungan.

Jika itu tiada apalah ertinya,
Penantian ini hanya sia-sia."

If you're still in love with her, why should i bother?
You cant have/love two girls at the same time.
Even if it's possible, i shall not gamble and risk my heart.
Take care.

Let's drop that previous topic. Im recovering from my asthma. Although, it is not fully recovered but atleast, it's getting better. I had my 16 hours of beauty sleep yesternight, from 7 in the evening till today, 11 in the morning. I was on MC yesterday and subsequently, 2 days off. It started from normal wheezing and then it escalated into chest tightness. Within a split second, i had difficulties in breathing, i was gasping for air. My aunt told me to go to the Doctor and get a tube of Ventolin inhaler. Ended up, i was on nebulizer. Dah lame kan tak kene asthma sekali kene macam nak mampos sey. I was crying like a baby. Too much for me to endure. I had fever, running nose, minor headaches, major heartaches, bad cough and asthma. Worst, i got scoldings from my Aunt for not taking good care of myself. She was worried for me. And told me to get myself absent from work the following day, which i did.

Thought of dropping by Tampines Mart later in the evening. Miss the whole bunch of them. Will see how it goes.

Cant wait till 26th Nov ; DBLO, 28th Nov; Zouk & 12th Dec; Zoukout. (:

15th November 2009

2009-11-14T10:51:00.000-08:00

Went out with Rafi, Huda, Fir, Agus, Dino and Wan. Actual plan was to watch Paranormal Activities at Town area but ended up, Wan and me was being left out cause' we were late. Wan fetched me all the way from Yishun and silly him, he should have told me that there's a change in venue. To Downtown, instead of Town. I can go public sey, Dohs. When the whole lot of them were enjoying the movie, we had our dinner at Pastamania. We shared about our single life. Unambiguously, i do felt a pinch of jealousy when he told me about the girls he's contacting with. Still, am aware of our limitation; friends. Well, ive have no say and acted cool. I am, actually. Sidetrack, after Downtown, we headed down to Grandlink since i suggested on Left 4 Dead. Its been so long since we had our lan gaming session. Wan taught Rafi how to play and i taught Huda as well. Fun fun fun. After an hour killing zombies and all, we decided to settle down at Kembangan Al- Ameen. They and their NS topic. Yang Fir pulak berangan jadi Sir. Kelakar gile (: Thanks Wan for sending home, sorry for troubling you. Really am.

Watching how loving Rafi and Huda is, did make me have some flashbacks. I was a little bit emotional and kept myself quiet. Im not expecting much from us. You're still the same cheeky naughty boy and i think its better for us to be just friends, for now. I know its hard, awkward for me to treat you this way, but to save this small little broken heart from aching, ill try to. Like you said, you dont want to disappoint me again and am appreciating it. Im letting you fly high boy, am not holding you back. If you're meant to be with me, we'll be back in future to come. As for now, im living my life like how it used to be for the past 7 months. Its not that bad after all. (;

I need to hit the sack soon. Time check; its 3 in the morning and im on full shift later at 10. Goodnight, babies.

14th November 2009

2009-11-14T01:30:00.000-08:00

Im still re-considering whether to quit blogging or not. Im too busy with shifts. Workaholic, i supposed. Even if im off from work, i wont be sitting at home, blogging. Pantat ni macam ade cacing kerawet gitu. Takleh duduk diam pat rumah. Yang kaki pulak asik nak jalan je. Potong kasi kodong baru tau. Haha. So many things happened lately. I shall not go in detail. Just too many to list it down. Can i just dedicate a portion of song lyrics to "some-bo-dee?"

Mimin; Maafkan diriku. Banyak dosaku padamu. Tidak terhitung jari jemari daku. Tak dapat dibilang bagai bintang beribu. Sukarnya diriku menebus kekhilafan yang lalu. Engkau tak bersalah. Hanya hatiku yang buta. Dan tanpa belas ku buat kau kecewa.

Im so sorry for breaking your heart. Didnt mean to do so. Was sincere right from the start, boy. But maybe, this heart is playing tricks on me. You're just too good for me. You've tried means and ways to prove me but its just the matter of heart. Im not ready for things that has got to do with love. No doubt, there's feelings for you but, that is that. I cant go far. Ive made my decision and i cant eat up my own words. Nevertheless, im missing you.

Sidetrack, last Thursday, i had a helluva fun at DBLO. Bumped into so many of kaki gereks; Kikilala, Flex, Nana, Mimi, Thyra, Azip & more. Went in with best friend, Wanie. Baek uh Wanie. Lagi sekali uhhhhhh! Aku suke nyah. Miang mode. Haha.

And for today, planning to catch a movie with Rezzuan and gang but yet to be confirmed. Wait a minute, let's make it clear for everyone of you. Sebelum ade orang gile assume kan, aku dengan Rezzuan kawan kay. Like how we started it; bestfriends eh dohs? Jangan kau start buat hoo-haa sudah eh pompan. Kalau tidak, penumbuk nabi lagi satu uh soy. Haha.

I wont be practically active in blogspot. But i am in Facebook. So kengkawan, add saye di sane ye; freak_a_lady@hotmail.com Tapi kalau stalker ke, makcik makcik quarters ke, tolong tau malu sikit.

See you soon.

6th November 2009

2009-11-05T15:27:00.000-08:00

Am i being so heartless? Ive been hearing statement made about them liking me. Im so sorry if the truth hurts. I cant push myself far. Infatuation, crushes, there's still a high possibilities. But to love somebody, am afraid i might not capable of doing so, for now. Boys, they'll be one step ahead if they know how to hit the right note but to win this little broken heart, it needs a higher level of patience. I can go 'gugu-gaga' over the night but to love, maybe months. Im yet to be ready. Im learning how to gain my trust back in giving my heart to someone else. Give me sometime but please dont expect too much from me because i dont want to leave you with a fat hope. Remember, my intention was never bad.

5th November 2009

2009-11-04T22:06:00.000-08:00

DUA PULUH CENT! (:
I had a blast on my birthday with my bunch of kaki gereks; Atiqah, Apiz, Sot, Lyssa, Bobby Joe, isa, Zairi, Naqiah, Mimi, Nana, Sab and Wanie, at Butterfactory. That was my virgin visit to Butterfactory, anyway. Naqiah was being such a dear to me. She handed over me a bouquet of 'plush-toy' roses, neatly tied with ribbon, while we're in the cab. I sukeeeeee~ Thank you baby. Had birthday kisses from the whole lot of them too. By the time the clock striked 12, they sang me a birthday song in the center of the dancefloor. Aww. I nearly burst into tears. Biaselah, sape tak kenal Dayah Cenggeng kan. But seriously, touching gile. Sayang korang. Banyakkkkkkkkk sekali.

Most probably, Saturday will be a belated celebration with my Dearest Brother. Since he cant make himself free yesternight, he decided to make it up to me on Saturday. Excited nye nak jumpe abang saye. Rindu nih!

I had an overwhelming birthday wish via SMS and Facebook. Thanks everyone. I really really appreciate it. Its the thought that counts, right? Let do some quick highlight on 3 birthday wishes from 3 important people in my life.

"Adekkuz syg, happy 20th b'dae. May all ur wishes come true. Da besar so pike lagy matang. Think of whats best for u. May u succeed in life n may god bless u wif health n wealth. Sowie cant make it 4 ur celebration. Duty la.. Take gd care of urself. Luf u lotsa!"
From Dearest Brother.

"Happy 20th my sis. All the best in your future endeavours. If you need someone to turn to, im always here for you. Hope you're strong to face the challenges ahead of you. You're like my own. I LOVE YOU SISTER. ENJOY YOUR DAY. Jage diri ok."
From Fyda Sayang.

"Dohs. hapi bdae. I still love you . Tats my bdae present to you ."
From Someone Unexpected.

And to YOU, thanks for making me looking forward to receive a birthday wish from you. At the end of the day, i received none. None at all from YOU. Boy, im disappointed. Just forget it.

3rd November 2009

2009-11-02T06:11:00.000-08:00

Ive been away for quite sometime and now, im here, back for more daily updates. I miss my blogmates; those who have been there for me, to be precised. Knowing that there's a high chance of me getting attack by hate taggers, doesnt make me have a second thought to be reactive in blogosphere. Im leading a way happier life at this very moment and i dont see a point why i should get myself affected by them. I let bygones be bygones and didnt keep any grudges towards those who have done critical damage to me. Ive drawn a blank to everything. I let it slip from my memory, especially those who are not worth to be kept. I wouldnt want to open up my history, matter-of-factly because, i dont wish to do any form of reminiscing. Simple as that. Let's skip this part. I shall do some updates.
Oh well........

Basically, ill be having my 3 off days; on the 3rd, 4th and 5th of November. The first day, which is today, i had my wonderful beauty sleep; from 7 in the morning to 8 in the evening. Yesternight was fun, indeed. Had karaoke session with the PH Riders for 2 solid hours at Grandlink. Subsequently, we headed down to Tenchi for Left 4 Dead. And the day before, we went for adventure at Jalan Kampung Chantek, Botanical Garden and Chinese Cemetery. In 20 years of my life, that was the first time, i laid my feets on the ground, with the source of lights, walking through the jungle, finding ghost. It was hell. I was so scared and eventually, had Bart and Abb to guard me. Ya, i know. Dayah pengecut.

2ND NOV 'O9; KARAOKE SESSION.

1ST NOV 'O9; ADVENTURE.

Tomorrow, ill be meeting my bunch of friends at Butterfactory to celebrate my 20th birthday. Despite knowing most of my babies are unable to make themselves present, i still proceed with the plan. I wish they could make it. But its okay. There'll always be a next time. Since abang gonna make it up to me on Saturday, i hope you babies can tag along too, ya? See you guys soon.